about communicate...
life is about communicate. for me, we are born to communicate, with peoples around us, with 'things' around us, with God, with ourself. we are all communicating with our surrounding, and with our innerself, all the time, as long as the clock ticking. even when we are asleep, we are communicating with our beyond concious brain wave.

about nightmare...
ha. talking about that, this morning i have a ridiculous nightmare. it was about vampire or dracula, the plot was hollywood material! hahah if i am producer or script writer in LA, i might be stashing my brain right now to materialize the dream. the story was sth like, in a small town, suddenly there's a darcula/vampire outbreak, and all of us were suppose to secure ourself in a compounded area, one of 'em was a hospital. then when i, as one of the heros in the nightmare, struggling to secure all the gates surrounding the building, suddenly numbers of dracula/vampire's 'armies' roaming outside the building. they were not the dracula/vampire, but a bunch of people whom blood had been sucked by dracula/vampire, so now they were the dracula/vampire's servant. so their job was to splat unto human some kind of smelly stuff, so that later at nite, when the dracula/vampires were hungry, they can hunt down the human by smelling the smelly stuff. and guess what, because of trying to save a fool guy, whom had been taking the securing the gate job lightly, i was splatted with the smelly stuff. i was so shocked that i straight away awoke. hahah it was almost 4am in the morning. so i just stay awake, turn on the tv for starworld channel. eheheh jangan marah ha.. nanti kena jual!

about shuq...
shuq call around 7am. so many nice story from their trip yesterday. and one really funny story. it was like this: they were walking around town, and then stopped by the market to buy some ikan masin terubuk (sort of brined fish), the fish is so famous around malaysia and brunei, well known as terubuk sarawak. so after getting their share, suddenly his friend, saw sth that catch his eyes, it was terubuk's egg. he accidently saw the price tag shown, RM.50, well is was actually RM50. so he carelessly took two of 'em and pass the old rm1 note to the saleslady, when the makcik told him, 'tak cukup ni, harga dia rm100,' so both of the other guys, including shuq, was roaring with laughter then while the guy, trying to save himself from the embarassment, and tring to save his money as well, politely cancelling the buy. eheheh rm100 for telur ikan??

shuq had already viewed the powerpoint show. he loved it! :) and another news, he's going to have his break earlier, starting on thursday. uhuks.. sob sob... so i guess cannot ym him for a while. anyway, he had promised to call me as many times as possible during the loooong break. shuq, keep your promise,k.

about communicate (cont.)...
i was listening to siti nurhaliza's seindah biasa. firstly, i was quite impressed with her. she manages to keep her sweet, innocent image up till now, after about 8 years being in the entertainment industry. it was a herculean effort, i know. i know she's not perfect, the thing is, i am not even a fan of hers. but i do respect her as she is very succesful (and rich, i think), and yet still have the good image as a malaysian artiste.

secondly, it was about her song, seindah biasa, extracting the lyrics:
takkan mungkin kita bertahan
hidup dalam bersendirian
panas terik hujan badai
kita lalui bersama

saat hilang arah tujuan
kau tahu kemana berjalan
meski terang meski gelap
kita lalui bersama

well, could not agree more. we are born to live together with all people around us. it is hard to survive alone, by ourself. i learnt it the hard way, yes i did. and also, from the depression phase that i had gone through, i now know, who is the one that willing to be together with me in highs and lows. i am lucky though that i have faced the turmoil, now i know who is my real friends, and who is just mere acquaintants.

to muharaj and alizam, thank you for being there for me. especially to muhar, thank you for always believing in me. 

aku tersenyum
lantas ku bukakan mataku
aku masih dalam kegelapan
tapi kini ku rasakan samar-samar cahaya
menerangi jalananku... kian cerah.