eid this year, was quite... bleak... hmmm dunno what's wrong. perhaps, sebab aku sendiri pun masih dalam proses 'pembersihan diri', n guess tak 100% bersih lagi... Ya Tuhan... ampunkan dosa2 ku.

many2 things happened in Ramadhan. one of interesting ones, I've witnessed a MINI TWISTER in my yards! my goodness, it was weird! firstly, it was a boring afternoon, spent watching tv, as it was too sunny and bright, i pulled my curtains. suddenly i notice a strange noise outside the house, and saw the curtains looked like vacuumed towards outside the house, so i went outside to investigate. n then i saw the twister.

that day, my mom jemur agar2 kering for raya, and i brought my pillows outside to sun, i put 'em on a chair. and when i was outside investigating the twister, i saw my two pillows were overthrown 180 degrees apart of each other, about 1m n half, BUT ever interestingly weirder, agar2 kering yg mak jemur tu, skittt pun tak terusik. and at that moment i notice a small whirlwind of twister was moving around in the yard, from pokok ubi to the banana trees.

i was speechless at that time. tgk langit, takde awan pun, clear n very shinny n bright. hmmm whatever it is, tu kejadian Tuhan (maybe you can explain on the climatilogy terms, REM?)

oh.. another reason i haven't blog for a while.... my dear, dear kitty is dead!! uhuks... it was actually 3rd ramadhan, it got knocked down by a car. she was sooo dear to me, she was getting huge and more adorable, but i gotta let go. but i promise myself not to adopt any kitty anymore. the letting go was not so easy, as it was not a human, i felt a bit wrong to mourn over a non-human living. yet, it was a life afterall... a precious one for me.

another news, i got a new couz, MUHAMMAD NAZHIIF. a very handsome, n bright young man. sooo tough man, tak sampai sebulan dan boleh berdiri di atas kaki sendiri! while didukung lah. makcik delivered him on 2nd ramadhan, 6th of november, 2005. so Najmii got a new boy gangm, n Najihah dah dilucutkan titled Adik, ehehh it was cumbersome for us to start calling her Kakak instead.

as for me, still looking and hunting for jobs. second week of ramadhan, went to Johor Bahru (again!) for a job interview with HP. still no news, but i got the hint that am not getting that. ada baiknya, as i doa to Allah kalau lebih bawa mudarat, i prefer not getting that. my cousin's wife, Kak Ngah (a Datuk Dr. now, wow, i've just known the fact, rupanya dah dapat datuk, but maintain normal jer, takde nak menunjuk pun) told me living in JB is not very pretty life. firstly the living cost, which is actually HIGHER than KL's, and then as the job require me to travel to Singapore almost daily, she said tt, it is one experience that I better not face daily. it's hel travelling the links over spore - jb, the jam, the traffic, the fume.. ergh buat tension jer. so i believe, if it was not best for me, then i better off without that.

so currently, concentrating job/career hunting down in Pahang, mostly in KL, Selangor and BRUNEI. I really2 hope to get a job in Brunei, actually any job will do. I am looking forward to settle down with my beloved in Brunei, really hope can start a career in Brunei. hah... so many Brunei typed here. camna lar nak cari kerja kat brunei ni, my beloved dah byk2 co hantar my resume, tapi susahnya nak dapat. mostly prefer bruneians gak... isk... takpe.. cuba lagi.. caiyoo caiyooo...

well, this entry pretty wrapped up my ramadhan n eid's celebration. oh ya, baju raya, same color as this blog's background :D eheheh i usually the silver type, dunno since when hooked up to golden color.

lastly, yesterday is AMIRA's birthday, 13th November. both of us celebrate dgn KFC jer last week, as she's getting busy with her SPM, which start tomorrow. relax jer that girl, sampaikan kakak dia ni yang almost 'heart attack' tgk dia selamba sgt2. anyway, i do pray for her success and to excell in her SPM. last paper on 2nd Dec, perhaps after that we will re-celebrate her birthday, n her freedom gak... ehehhe tunggulah time nak amik result nanti.

ouh, before pen down (err mana datangnya pen lak... ekekek), i've contacted my old fling, (HAH!) for help. ada kes panik n breakdown during ramadhan. n guess whom i've run to? to mr aqua. that kes, actually sebab communication breakdown ngan my beloved, i feel neglected and lonely (again). i turned to aqua. i was confius, why i went looking for him. but, surprise, surprise, i think i now know why. he understood me well. he knew how to handle me, indeed at the first attempt of panick stricken email, he contact me and sent me a very SURPRISING news. which then got more surprising, and at the end, it was actually ONLY A JOKE! which make me laugh and feeling less depressed. after some more phone calls, emails and smses, later only he start to gimme serious suggestions for my problems encountered. and me, being calmer and more rationale, manage to think through his words, and now, not that panick anymore. thanx aqua.

he's getting married this weeked. to his fiance, he knew back from utp, a junior. it was quite a big story among three of us. maybe later i'll spent some time to write the story here. i wish him to be happy with her until hereafter. hope they'll be together and blessed by Allah as a hubby n wife.